Prayer

As I sit here waiting for my silhouette machine to finishing cutting so I can update the Lou & Coops website with some fall items, new pages, and new kids line, tears are filling my eyes. And it’s not out of frustration because the fall items are late which will push the holiday products back. It’s out of relief and feeling like the richest person in the world.

Relief. It has been a hard last couple of months. From normal colds to hearing the words your husband has a mass in his lung, to finding it’s an abscess which will weaken him to a point he never faced before to getting myself sick, as well as our son. And it’s hard with our son due to his speech delay and sensory disorders. Starting to get answers for him and hearing today that my husband’s abscess is shrinking has been answers to so many, many prayers.

The prayers make me feel like the richest person in the world. I have had a hard time with prayer. I pray for my friends, family and those in the world who are suffering. But when I pray for myself or my husband, I sometimes feel like God isn’t listening. I get petty and jealous when I see those on social media who pray and say pray and ask God what you want and he will provide as they drive a better car, build a better house or have more help with their children. Where as I would pray but everything seemed the same. And more struggles. Wow, admitting that makes me feel so small and so petty. But as I prayed (and lately I have prayed for God to help me decide which direction my faith life is heading, as well as praying for my family), I realized how many true friends in Christ and in life we have that will take the time to pray or send good thoughts our way. I didn’t realize just how much people care about us and not just going through the motions of saying they are praying and thinking of us. The countless messages, calls, emails and conversations have made us feel so connected to our friends and God through love and support. And I see the gift that God has given us is priceless to the material possessions we covet here on Earth. 

I can not thank everyone enough not only for the prayers, but for refreshing my eyes to God’s love and works. And for giving us this reward. I always go by the old saying be kind to everyone because you don’t know their struggle. And after this experience, I feel like if we could all be kind and gentle, man, what a world we would have.